he kept hanging up on me
When I first got sober, I had a fantastic sponsor who helped me work a 12-Step program.
Although he was only a few years older than I was, he was wise beyond his years.
When something went wrong in my life (which happened often back then), I’d call him for help.
Usually, I was asking for support with relationship drama or work issues because my whole life was getting power-washed by my new commitment to presence, integrity, and healing.
I would immediately launch into describing everything that was going wrong, and he’d cut me off and ask, “Have you prayed about it yet?”
When I inevitably said, “No…”
He’d reply, “I can’t help you then. How can I help you if you haven’t talked to God about it yet? Go pray and meditate on it for 15 minutes and then call me back if you still have an issue.”
In these early days, sometimes he would just hang up on me mid-vent in the middle of a sentence. Cut off — dead air.
At first, I thought he was being extreme.
But I trusted him, so I followed his approach.
Go to God. Pray about it. Then call him if necessary.
Not the other way around.
So, I tried out this new routine.
I’d bring my thoughts and problems to a “God” I was just starting to reacquaint myself with, however vague the connection was.
And, after some time, I started to get it.
So, I called my sponsor less and less, and I became more and more attuned to my own divine guidance.
And then I really got it.
He taught me a very valuable lesson, which is that putting God first on a moment-by-moment basis is the key to a miraculous, peaceful life.
He didn’t listen to me rattle off all my problems and negativity or sit on the phone and babysit me while I “did my homework” and prayed.
He held me accountable, called me forward, and gave me a choice to take a step toward God and see what happened.
Now, I do the same thing with my students (minus the hang up!).
We begin by slowing down, tuning in, and giving everything to God before anything else.
Otherwise, we’re just in our heads, coming from our limited understanding, cut off from Infinite Intelligence and a world of creative solutions and inspired actions.
Over the years, I’ve learned firsthand that when I don’t put God first, life goes sideways.
Said another way: When I forget that my creative power comes from within, and I begin to reach outside myself for answers that can only come from my inner guidance, it doesn’t end well.
This doesn’t mean we do life totally alone, without friends, confidants, teachers, or supporters.
It means that when we turn to God first, we’ll be sent external allies that are divinely aligned.
There’s a big difference between receiving the help God sends you, and reactively reaching outside yourself for crutches, advice, and resources.
We talked about this in Godsend, the transmission I gave last week on reconnecting to divine guidance. (You can watch the replay for free here.)
And we’re diving deeper into the lived experience in Holy Liberation.
Holy Liberation is an 8-week journey to restore your relationship with God so you can live a miraculous, divinely guided life.
It is a sacred space, a divine dojo, where you can reclaim your life from external influences and return to your inner guidance.
So, as I share more about it over the next week, I invite you to tune in about whether you’re one of the divine comrades who are meant to join us in the dojo.
If so, you’ll hear the call.
When you do, click here to register.
Much love,
Aaron